I always thought I became overweight when I had the twins.
Then last night I was looking through some old photos....
This is Sarah and I at her first birthday party.
I don't look too overweight, maybe an extra chin or so, but that's about it.
And at her second party....
Possibly a little bigger? But it could just be the photo angle.
It made me start to query my thoughts on when I started to put on weight and why.
I came up with a couple of alternative thoughts....
1. I started to take scrapbooking more seriously. Instead of getting out and about for a walk in the evenings I'd sit at my desk creating layouts. When the kids went down for a nap, I'd sit and scrap.
2. I had Dan. Instead of walking everywhere with the kids (i.e. to the library, playgroups etc) we would go in the car. I only had a double buggy, and couldn't take 3 children in it.
3. Both happened at roughly the same time.
So I was sitting around more, doing less exercise.
Which is good to know. But what about the food? I seem to be eating 'crap' food now and am unable to stop. I'm exercising regularly (at least 3 times a week for bootcamp), but just can't seem to stop the junk entering my mouth.
I've heard alot of people talk about 'fat people' making comments such as 'they're lazy' or 'just stop eating'. Unfortunately it's just not that easy. Believe me, I've tried!
After loosing a ton of weight a couple of years ago, I put it back on over the last two years (yes, it took all of two years to put it back on - so why didn't I notice and do something about it? The short answer is I did notice, the long one, is that it's all part of the whole issue).
So when we were getting ready to go away to the Gold Coast I had the normal 'pre travel jitters' that I get when I'm overweight. Ugh, I don't want to be in photos. How am I going to put on togs at the water parks? What clothes am I going to wear? Nothing fits! Somehow you get through don't you?
But the travel, and the old photo's have made me realise the reason I became overweight wasn't what I thought it was. And so it changes how I handle it. It might be something I can address differently and so more effectively.
Let's hope so.
