Since finishing my detox, I've had the normal struggle with myself.
Me 1: No you don't want chocolate, you've just had lunch. You are NOT hungry. Just craving.
Me 2: But it tastes sooooooo good.
Me 1: But if you eat it, you'll love it for a minute then walk around like a bear with a headache cause you're so grumpy with yourself.
Me 2: I know. But I really WANT it.
Me 1: But you DON'T NEED it.
Me 2: Yes I do. I really do need it.
Me 1: NO YOU DON'T. Walk away from the kitchen.
Me 1: Put that biscuit BACK!
Me 1: Oh no.
Me 1: Not the ice-cream too!
Me 1: Gosh it does taste good.
Me 1: I'm so disappointed with myself. Again.
Do you have the same discussions with yourself? Some days I win and can walk away. Others I loose. Big time. But I've decided that each time I give in. I just need to start again. Eating something unhealthy at lunch doesn't mean I'm allowed to for the rest of the day.
Then yesterday, which was a particularly hard day after all the trauma from watching and hearing stories and descriptions of what is happening in Ch/Ch I decided to be proactive and take responsibility for what was going in my mouth....again. LOL.
I desperately wanted a burger and chips. But know how unhealthy they can be. Then somewhere in the back of my mind something came to light. I remembered a programme I'd flicked onto a while back and how they made a burger, chips and milkshake healthy. I googled it and found this:
"Cook yourself thin". Ahhhhh, just what I need. Fill the cravings healthily.
And so I made dinner. I made this receipe (without the milkshake). I had a burger. I had kumera chips. I had a coke zero. And I felt good about it.
And that, I have decided, is what I need to do. I need to feel good about what I'm eating. I need to enjoy what I'm eating. I need to stop beating myself up and just make healthy choices more easy.
You can be assured I'll be going back to that website for dinner (and maybe even lunch too!) today.